The DOG

I don't know where else to tell... hihihihi

first when the whole world trust me, you don't, you are the one start treating me like a third person. Then you blame me of not loving you. it's not i am lonely without you, is that i am lonely with or without you. it's not that i will die if you leave, it makes no difference in my life. Why you always take me in exchange for a material reward. Am i all that to you ? can you put a price on me ? you seem not to understand everything i go through, this is simply because all the material things have blocked your eyes. HELL YEA, i am Stingy, i am miser, i dun spend money on you. But you don't see, you already leave me a beggar , i got a loan i am dying to finish, you sort to plan how to increase my load . big of all you seem to care but you don't care about my load and my loan, all that you concern is how you are going to pass your LOAD and you LOAN on me. whose Fault ? why Loan so big ? is it because of me ? or your failure to plan well for me ? i know your LOAN is big because of me, but why ? why others don't but you ? stop to think ? blame me blame me, say i don't care.

EVERYDAY i see through your thought, "weirdo, attitude problem, mental" all these that you have nailed on me. I am happy to know you understand me that well. Think about it, at what level of my deepest thought you could grasp, then tell me how much you love me or how much you know about me ? I AM SAD everyday to know, you don't know me. in fact the least people in the street or the people i really come in close with really understand me but why not you ? i just wish you would see me through. IT's not a high expectation, you show me the world, you claim to own me, least you could do is to understand me but you don't. And you will never be. being what i am, at a side , i feel like i have revenged enough on how neglected i feel. Less belong to anyone now.

At work i am treated like Dog, at home too. "life" where are you ? i seem to have lost. Come here, THINK please THINK BACK ... THINK BACK ... i didn't do this for anyone, i cannot take the backstabbing anymore. PLEASE have you had enough with me ? are you satisfied with doll around me ? i let you doll me in return for the debts that i owed you, but how long more ? why are you treating me this way ?

i only cry to myself, because i got no one i can lean my shoulder on, and i know i cannot get a shoulder anymore. All i expect is, my life could be better if no one bothers me. REALLY, i can live all alone. I tried and i know .. i might be little sad alone, but i won't be tortured everyday to think of things i go through.

MY tears are MY owns ...

the only thing i will never let you share on it.